047.

My dad and I have had enough of her, seriously. She likes to make a scene everywhere she pleases. I'm at the library for the first time and she's being loud, so I tried to get her to be a little more quiet. She gets all butthurt and starts getting louder. Saying that we're leaving and is basically screaming it. She leaves and I'm staying because I'm not finished looking through the book shelves. Comes back in five minutes later screaming I SAID WE WERE LEAVING YAR YAR YAR and everyone's turning around. Then I'm at checkout and she's all, "I'm not coming here anymore. I'm not coming here anymore."

And now we're home and she still will not stop running her mouth.

I don't know why my dad has not divorced her. "It's all because of you."
IF IT WERE ALL ABOUT ME, YOU WOULD DIVORCE HER AND SHE WOULD GO BACK TO GERMANY AND I WOULD BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE.

Frak, when I leave her, I want nothing to do with her ever again.
Never.

046.

i went to gamestop today to sell some things. i have 6 PS2 games, PS2 controller, and a PS2 console. for all of that, i only got 24$ and that was actually store credit. i was a bit disappointed, but oh well. it'll go toward a pokemon game. probably platinum. mayla is selling me her ds lite for 80$. but i don't have to pay it all at once. i give her 15 tomorrow, then 25 in a week or so when i get it. then i give her the rest at the graduation or something, i dunno. i may give her a little more as i get more money until i reach 80 dollars or so unless she gets sick of it, haha. she's also giving me pokemon diamond for five dollars. XD so i need to come up with another ten more dollars if i want to get platinum because 24 won't cover a 35 dollar game...

aha, i thought someone was going to get shot today. at cici's pizza, there was this car going down the hill and some guy standing out of a moving car (dumbass) and he was yelling at someone. i thought he was being dumb and hollering at his friends, but no. there was another guy in the parking lot. older. and he had his arms out like he was trying to be tough. then the car stops and another guy is coming out and takes his jacket off angrily and stuff. i dunno what happened after 'cause we left, haha. i wonder what did happen though...

045.

right now, i feel like shooting myself in the head or duct taping my mother's mouth. actually, duct taping wouldn't work 'cause she'd be screaming as usual and she could still be heard. all i want is for her to shut the hell up for one god damn day. just one. can i please have one fucking day of peace?! hah, epik high pun.


i want this game, but in order to have this game, i have to have a nintendo ds. so now i'm saving. so far, i have 15$ since i traded in 10 Euro. bah. i still have my other 5 Euro since i wanted to have one just for keeping. it's all pretty and blue and... yeah. i'm thinking about selling my PS2 and some games i have for store credit to work towards the nintendo ds and the game.


i like camphone whoring in the car. oh, and i got an iced coffee with milk with whip from starbucks today. i haven't had one in a long time. yum. <3

044.

actually, i lied. i'm probably going to start up number titles again (and trying to be more careful about it) since i cannot think of interesting titles to save my life.

i had a really weird dream a few hours ago. first of all, lately, i've been getting these "boys have a crush on you" or "boyfriend/girlfriend" dreams which kinda annoys me because i'm a single, anti-social person that doesn't get much of a social life no matter how hard i try, hah. anyways, that's a different story. back to the dream. and yeah, there was this guy that apparently liked me and we got together and the next day, we're taking "artsy" naked pictures together! hell, i don't even know. i have weird dreams, man. then apparently a teacher saw (i'm not in school anymore, btw) and she's all "i looked on your myspace and saw the date of your relationship and now you're doing this?! why?!". first of all, why you on my myspace? XD and, yeah, i just went and ignored her. then i got some official test from the school that nobody ever told me about and i refused to do it or something, i dunno, then i woke up. what. the. hell?

hm, i'm not sure what to talk about. life still sucks, as usual. still living with the abusive brat aka peanut butter (inside joke between me & a friend) aka stupid "mother". i still can't drive even with a permit 'cause my dad's not taking me driving and i don't trust that other jackass (aka peanut butter) in the house. all the "rich kids" are at college and stuff so they're away from home and they have something to do while i'm broke and i "self study" korean which gets poor and i don't really remember anything. people are out having a good time while i'm still here alone because i don't like asking people to come pick me up 'cause i know they're gonna say *INSERT CITY I'M IN HERE* IS TOO FAR! YOU COME HERE! the hell am i supposed to get there, dumbass?

yeah, i don't see myself living much longer. no, i'm not suicidal. what i'm saying is i just don't see myself living by the age of 20. i just can't imagine it, really. hm.

boring.

oh my god, i don't even know what to talk about anymore. having a blogger is different than having livejournal. my livejournal friends & i are more close-knit while my followers & i... not so much. plus, i don't do anything interesting enough for blogger, hah.

i'm waiting for monday night to come around so more subbed episodes of hi my sweetheart & autumn's concerto with come out on youtube. i think i'll end up watching hi my sweetheart first to get it out of the way, then watch autumn's concerto. rainie yang vs. vanness wu, who will win?! haha.

goodbye, number titles.

안녕하세요. 잘지내지?

oi, i give up on number titles, haha. i've realized i've gotten the numbers wrong. i would sometimes forget to change the number and now it's all messed up and blah. i just don't want to deal with it anymore! haha.

dude, what is with simon cowell leaving american idol in may and stuff? come on, he was the best. XD that show is just going down and down. i only watch it for the judges and to see the hilarious auditions.


my korean handwriting is very messy, hm.

oh, my second favourite barista at blue moose coffee lodge told me i should be a movie star, hahaha. oh, she's so fun.

『37』

I am in love with how my arm and shoulder look in that picture, seriously, haha. So manly. :D Bwahaha. Thank you, Jillian Michaels.

Yesterday, it was 25F degrees, no lie. I was wearing that tank top, jeans, and a very thin/sheer pullover from Charlotte Russe that will not warm you up at all. I went to Blue Moose Coffee Lodge which is a drive thru, but when I'm with my mom, I have her park somewhere and then I walk up there, haha. I just feel it's more personal and I can talk to the baristas more that way. (: But yeah, I went standing out there in my little clothing, haha. It was so windy! The woman that I see most was working at the time and when she saw me, she freaked out! She gave me my coffee before she catered to her sister (who was there before me, hahah). She was all, "Why are you standing in the cold? Bring your car over!" Haha, I love that woman. I still wonder when Leah is working again.

standard transcript: lesson 1
keith: 안녕하세요? keith입니다. 처음 뵙겠습니다.
윤설: 안녕하세요? 윤설입니다. 처음 뵙겠습니다.

standard transcrpt: lesson 2
천홍: 윤설 씨?
윤설: 천홍 씨! 안녕하세요!
천홍: 어... 안녕하세요. 저는 박천홍입니다. 처음 뵙겠습니다.
수진: 안녀ㅇ하세요. 저는 한수진입니다. 처음 뵙겠습니다.
운설: 수진 씨는 학생입니다. 천홍 씨는 선생님입니다.

My Korean lessons are a load of fun! I really need a new set of Korean keyboard stickers. Mine are wearing off and I'm tired of fixing them with white nail polish. It looks crappy.

By the way, add me on these things: myspace, dailybooth, twitter. I may give out Facebook... later.

『37』

my BEAST/B2ST hoodie. (: in better quality, haha. the pictures i took yesterday were all webcam. it says "gi kwang" on the back where my butt is, hah. i kinda wish i would've gotten yo seob instead, oh well.

cvs was having a 75% off sale and i got some things. the things i won't have pictured (because they sucked - - the pictures, NOT the product) are milani's "mocha swiss" lipstick and two rimmel london lipsticks in "frosted". yes, i got two. they were only 1.32$ each and when i picked up one, there was one left, so why not get another one dollar lipstick while i can?

physician's formula bronzer in, uh, "light skin". it cost 3.75$ while the original price is 14.99$. i've always wanted something from PF, but was not willing to pay so much, haha. i'm lame. nah, not really. i dunno.


PF pressed powder... translucent fair something something. it cost me the same amount as the bronzer and the original price was the same as well.

last but not least...


l'oreal true match... powder?! i don't know?! hahaha in... shell beige/beige C4 blah blah blah. hell, i dunno if it matches, but it only cost me 2.75$! even if it doesn't match, i'll still probably wear it. as weird as i may sound, i like playing with different shades of lighter foundation and tinted moisturizer and all that junk.

so yeah, my total was 15.27$. hahaha. i saved so much money, holy crap!

『36』

I made a new MySpace again, hah. I'm not sure how long I'll keep up with it. To get to it, click here.

Life has been pretty... boring lately, hm. 2010 is just the same old thing as 2009. I have no active social life and I pretty much sit around the house most of the time unless Esther ("mother") goes somewhere and I go with her.

I was supposed to go to a birthday party yesterday, but my ride aka one of the birthday girls went to the hospital or something all morning because she got really sick and couldn't go. And by the time I got the phone call, my mom had left so she couldn't take me. I suggested me, Mayla, and Madi all hang out one day so I can give them their birthday cards and give Mayla the CD I made for her.

Mmm, not much to talk about really. Bought a new German language book for 11$. I'm a fail German, hahah.